If only we could love and accept people as they are; not to say that they should not try to be their best, the person God created them to be, but sometimes as humans we have this crazy notion that we are inadequate and not because we are not trying our level best, but just because we feel that we
do not have the luxury of being anything less than perfect. Echoing in my head every time I make a mistake is my father’s angry voice asking me incessantly “Can’t you do ANYthing right? It was enough to make anyone doubt themselves and just stop trying.
But my father, truthfully, was not talking to me when he was angry and critical. He was talking to the little boy inside himself; the one he always felt did not measure up. Was that what happened to Elvis Presley and Michael Jackson? Were they trying to attain greatness beyond what they had already reached? Was that the reason they used one substance to increase stamina and energy and another to quiet it down later so they could get the rest they so desperately needed?
My father had not even graduated from high school when he left to serve his country and during his physical found out he had flat feet so the Army did not want him. He was but 16; his father was a cruel task master and school was a luxury. He had hoped to get an education and make something of himself in the military. His father’s dream was the dairy farm he grew up on but my father needed his own dream.
He married Mom when she was 15 and they had my sister and I in less than two years. They both worked full time and then Dad came home to work his many odd jobs. After working till dark he would come in to rest but his ulcers tore at his stomach and kept him from sleeping so he would drink till he got
Elvis, Michael and my father all had something in common. They abused substances till the substances abused them. Talented, bright, dedicated, hardworking, determined…but they are all gone. It should not take one more person leaving us as a result of substance abuse, for us to understand that there are programs to help such as Atlanta Drug Rehab.
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